I’ve tried to be good for so long
Have tried to be a ‘nice girl’
Tried to be everything everyone else seems to want
To take my ‘proper place’ in the world
But that isn’t who I am!
I am not who others think I should be!
I am sick of being told what I ‘should’ or ‘shouldn’t do’
Leave me alone and let me be me!
I truly can’t keep going on this path
If it’s only about peace, love, and light
Those values are very important to me yes
But sometimes it doesn’t feel quite right
It appears I’m meant to forgive unconditionally
Stop judging others for the harm they may cause
And even if they seek to emotionally wound me
Before reacting to them I should pause…. ….
And realise that they are my challenger
And consider what they are teaching me
Remember that good and bad are human labels
And then respond to them considerately
And sure I guess that is indeed so
From a spiritual point of view, no doubt
But I’m not just spiritual, I’m human as well
And sometimes I need to let things out!
If I am prepared to permit ill treatment
To swallow down my pride, anger, and rage
Then I need to know I will suffer for this
I must let the trapped beast out of the cage
Okay so you have been my challengers
And you have shown me the extent of my pride
And while I’m proud I didn’t respond to your nastiness
From my anger I’m no longer going to hide
Yes we all have a role to play
But you still should take responsibility for your actions
And just because I can control myself enough
To no longer give you a reaction
Doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt
For it didn’t need to be said at all
Does it really make you feel better to belittle others?
Won’t relying on that lead to a fall?
And okay so maybe I’m not as strong as you guys
Maybe my body won’t tolerate what yours go through
But that doesn’t mean I’m weak and lazy
Just that I’m very different to you
If you stop telling me what I should do
You might be surprised by what I achieve
Have you thought about not judging me for a moment?
And reconsidering what it is you perceive?
Who cares if I let you down?
Who cares what ‘the neighbors’ think?
Whatever happened to love unconditional?
You know I’m not going to sink!
This is whom I was born to be
This magnificent version of myself
And you don’t get to have a say in it
Neither you nor anyone else!
No I’m not going to obey convention
I choose to walk the untrod path
To take the road less travelled
Remember how to dance and laugh
And you can have whatever opinion you want
And no doubt you will share it
But though I will remain quiet in response maybe
No longer will my immune system wear it
Anger can be a positive emotion
Very powerful and sexual too
But I was always swallowing down my anger
Because negatively it I viewed
But anger can be good
If it is used in the right way
For it is passion, the fire of the universe
And it needs to have its say
First is to acknowledge the anger
Stop denying that you have been hurt
Then is to consider what to do about it
What solutions this energy can birth
But using it to attack others
Either with words or physically
Is a complete misuse of this power
Surely this you can now see?
There are always better ways
Methods that are more constructive
In helping you to release your energy
In a manner much less destructive
Lashing out is not the answer
But neither is holding it in
Pretending that you don’t feel angry at all
For isn’t wrath a deadly sin?
In order to know how to heal
You first need to know how to hex
Anger is a very powerful emotion
And denying it will truly have an adverse effect
So I’m going to reconnect with my anger
This energetic passion inside of me
I’m going to look at better ways of releasing
For this can’t continue I see
It is not okay that they treat me like this
It is not okay that they always have
But it is okay that I am angry about it
Feeling angry doesn’t make me ‘bad’
Dear anger I accept your presence
And I acknowledge the lessons you bring
I choose to be a victim of others no more
It’s time I stopped this cycle of self-blaming
For I am not other people’s thoughts about me
They are entitled to their own opinions yes
But I determine they’ll no longer have power over me
That’s the only way I can achieve true success
I’m a spiritual being having a human journey
And humans judge and don’t always forgive
Yes I can learn to accept unconditionally
But detached from my self I don’t want to live
My anger is a vital part of myself
This I can finally see
To deny myself righteous anger
Is to deny an essential part of me
For anger provided the courage to face my battles
And the energy to continue on this path
And it was anger that made me aware of my boundaries
So from here on in I will befriend my wrath